God is good all the time - but there are moments in time where His love stands out so clearly to me. One of those moment was when I gave birth to my 2 sons - especially my first. It was a crazy realization about the amount of love I could have for someone, and then the understanding that my God loves me even more than that. And then there was yesterday, when I laid in bed and couldn't fall back to sleep while thinking about my son half way around the world. It hit me - I suddenly understood a bit clearer God's pursuit of me. Here I am and I would do anything for this little boy. I've loved him since before we knew him, and then that love grew ten-fold when we saw his picture for the first time. And I've been pursuing him ever since. Some of this he is aware of, but very little. Like I said, I would do anything for him, and we love him and all that comes with him - baggage, potential health issues, language barrier, time of transition, etc. and would never think twice about our pursuit of him. Just like God's love, he pursues us and loves us baggage and all! In this moment I saw once again how awesome our God is - he is in hot pursuit of us. He is always there, always moving, always present, always loving! It is the most constant love we could ever ask for or imagine. A love that sacrificed on our behalf! This journey hasn't been easy all the time, but I'm so thankful for the way that God has continued to prove sovereign and continued to show us his love each and every part of the way!
Part of our blessing yesterday came with a 3AM wake up call from our sweet boy. The phone rang - it was an international number and Nate and I huddled in bed to hear our son's voice for the very first time. AMAZING! I wish we had it recorded so I could play that sweet little voice over and over again and hear him say in his sweet Lingala "I love you mama, I love you papa, I'll see you soon." This was the most incredible gift our adoption group could have given us. Three women (1 of the owners and 2 adoptive moms) are on the ground in Congo right now having meetings with our attorneys and delivering supplies to the orphanage and foster homes. A swing set and the goats and rice we purchased for our orphanage were also part of their deliveries. We are hoping they will help both keep the grass in the yard short and supply milk for our kids and the swings will allow our kids to be truly kids! Besides the phone call we were blessed with lots of new pictures, updated measurements and quick snippets of what they recalled about each child's personality. The best part is our whole adoption group sat around our computers all over the US at the same time commenting on each photo of our child and others in absolute excitement. A picture of your child half a world away is like pure gold - unless you're going to have him call me on the phone and then I guess that takes the cake!
Please continue to pray for our son - we'd love specifically if you'd pray him home before his birthday in June! We are believing for a trip in April/May - join us in trusting our Mighty God!